How I’m getting my life back on track (I hope)

I feel like I've been swinging the bat kinda like this. Not literally. But I probably do actually swing like this.

Numbers 32-34

I feel like I've been swinging the bat kinda like this.  Not literally. But I probably do actually swing like this.

I feel like I’ve been swinging the bat kinda like this. Not literally. But I probably do actually swing like this.

I believe the Lord has been speaking to me directly lately.

Unless you’re an evangelical Christian, this seems somewhat delusional or the work of introspective suggestion, but hopefully my self-awareness is a sign of moderate sanity.  Concession aside, here’s a list of what has happened recently:

– My wife made a curriculum for me to help me focus on my daily tasks.  It seems to have helped in the past week.

– I’ve been generating a lot of interest in my writing lately; strangely, very little of it has had to do with this blog, even though I put the most effort into this thing.

– I started playing with Twitter, and I got a surprise when my name was mentioned on the radio on the first day.

– I got in the car on another occasion during a brief segment on the radio discussing a website that helps people struggling with career placement.

– Since making some definitive decisions and achieving mild victories, I have had what I can only describe as spiritual attacks while I’ve slept — unquestionably at my most vulnerable.

– My guitar students have been gradually dropping off lately, while the studio at large is really taking off.  That might seem backwards, but not in context.

– My wife and I have had some meaningful conversations, resulting in a better definition of our marriage roles and a better perspective on how we should be involved at church.

– And finally, I happened to see this video today:

Can I chalk it all up to coincidence?  Maybe.  But it’s hard to do that when you apply it to God’s Word, and especially when you didn’t pick what you’d be studying today.

In the reading today, which is admittedly somewhat dry, there are a few themes I’d like to highlight:

1) Premature acquisition. (32:1-5) Some of the Israelite tribes start getting excited about the goodies to come regarding their land portions. Moses tells them to calm down. It’ll all come together, but it’ll take some time.

I’m 31.  It’s not exactly prime time to be starting a career, or really anything at all.  I have a hard time not comparing myself to professional athletes, especially since I grew up aspiring to be like some of my favorites.  Their shelf life is about 40 years old — I’d be in my prime in baseball, but rounding retirement in pro football. But I don’t think that’s being fair to myself, however — these guys had to wait 40 years themselves. It’s not too late.  It’s never too late.

2) Following through. (32:20-24) The tribes in question are asked to cross the Jordan River first; basically, they’re told to finish what they’ve started.

Another baseball analogy: the best hitters always finish their swing. Lately, I’ve been HORRIBLE about finishing things.  I believe God is clearly communicating to me through this reading that it’s time to get some projects completed. Are you being called to do the same?

3) Taking out the trash. (33:50-56) In order for Israel to occupy some of the land, they have to dispense of any remaining idols or worship practices the previous inhabitants had left behind.

A prerequisite to spiritual growth and maturity is dispensing of the old man. Not your father.  That’d be insensitive.  It’s a way of saying that the person you were previously needs to be completely dismissed.  If I believe I am a new creation in Christ, then the stuff I have left behind can’t come with me. Our history shapes who we are today, but it doesn’t have to define what we are.

4) Proper allotment. (34:1-2) Israel is to divide up the new land. Every tribe gets their own section. No more, no less.

It’s hard to imagine that you’ve been called to do something specific that you enjoy, especially if your job completely sucks. But it’s true.  God has given us each an “allotment” — no more, no less.  This can be both sobering and uplifting, but in humility and the subsequent pursuit of God’s will is joy.

I hope this encourages you today.

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  1. You give me much to think on, Kelly. God is at work in my life, and just made it that much more recognizable through your post, if that makes sense.

  2. Thank you, Amy! That makes plenty of sense. I think God is always working on our lives — in my case, I just flip flop between awareness and stubbornness.


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